Daily a suicide bomber

 Today I woke up very badly.
 Nothing physical.
 Still sober so I think my days will end.
 I take a coffee, lit a cigarette.
 I grab my jacket, put my Allstar and go wandering aimlessly.
 I think of the silliest things.
 In the books I sold, I sold the stereo and that I miss now.
 As I said silly thoughts.
 After so much walking I find myself in an unfamiliar place and alone.
 Horribly out of here.
 Moreover, as I arrived and how I lived.
 No matter.
 Nothing else matters.
 Nothing else matters.
 I gave up everything.
 Now do not make a difference in anyone's life.
 I swear I tried to escape this, but it was stronger than me.
 I am weak and alone.
 I see no other alternative.
 I have no other outlet.
 It was a great sweep of life.
 And I do not want to be agonizing.
 I want to stop suffering once and for all.
 Here let my goodbye to people who bother me.
 But I could not stand all at once.
 Will fix it all in sudden.
 I give up.
 Tired.
 I surrender.
 I'll be looking at everything from the other side.
 Why nothing keeps me here.
 Moreover, there is only one way, a way to get me out of this.
 And this idea troubled head.
 But this will not happen!
 Never!
 And having already seen it, I quit to live.
 Why do not already have senido stay here.
 What good would I anyway?!
 I tried and it surrendered so easily.
 But for me that's enough.
 Do not take anyone's time with my whining.
 Nor with my problems.
 Do not tell anyone.
 When will they realize in their daily morning will be gone!
 I'll be far from here, nobody can I reach.
 I say goodbye and leave.
 Goodbye!